Some days are very hard.
I’ve stopped relying on my friends when I’m really down. I know they feel powerless because there isn’t much they can do for me. My mom once told me “Friends are great for when you’re feeling good.” and, sadly, it is kind of true.
I always leaned on my dad even on my darkest days but yesterday he kind of snapped and showed disappointment. It hurt. Both because I never thought this day would come and because I never wanted to disappoint him. Ever.
It’s hard feeling lonely. I was never very good at holding my pain inside. I don’t know what might happen.
Should I try to ignore it and just keep focused on the work I need to get done? Probably.